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Harlem, New York, United States
At a very young age I knew I wanted to do anything that involved getting my "opinion" on life out there. I would tell true stories and made up stories. I would sing and dance. I would conduct interviews and draw pictures. I just needed an outlet. My plans were to become a talk show host, until one day my mother pointed out that it would mean I'd have to do a lot of listening too. I realized talk show host wasn’t really going to work since what I really wanted was to talk and have people listen. In time I had to admit that I had much more to say than most people had time to listen to. So, I started to keep a journal. My journals helped me to formulate my thoughts and emotions but I still had no audience. Hopefully this blog will give me that audience. Blessed Be

Friday, September 30, 2011

Missin' the Kissin'

I’ve written what I love about being single… here are some of the (family friendly) things I love about NOT being single…

Holding Hands
His hands on my hips as he pulls me towards him
His hand on my lower back when I walk ahead of him in a crowd
Standing closer than necessary while waiting on a line
Full body to body hugs
Kissing…
            A kiss hello
            A kiss good-bye
            A kiss for no reason at all…
            A kiss while stopped at a red light
            A kiss in the elevator…
            A kiss on the hand
            A kiss on the cheek
            A kiss on the shoulder
            A kiss on the neck… that makes me shiver
Being called Baby
Him waiting for me outside the Ladies room
Sharing each other’s dinner
Laughing at inside jokes
Cuddling while watching TV
Reaching for each other in the morning (before even opening our eyes)
Making up after a disagreement
Changing clothes without going into another room
Holding his keys in my purse 
Wearing his jacket in a cold theater
Wearing his shirt to bed
Comfortable silence
Just sharing space... him watching the game, me reading a book
Seeing my picture when he opens his wallet
Getting a text of “XOXO” in the middle of a busy day
Hearing his voice on the phone before going to bed when we’re apart
And … the comfort of making plans

;-)

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

A New Path

I am a Pagan.
I come from a pretty diverse spiritual background and so, I feel Paganism best encompasses that diversity.
I have people in my life from many different religious and spiritual backgrounds and I love it, it’s amazing. When a person is strong in their own beliefs there is no need to convince anyone else of that. Their path is "Their" path, not necessarily "The" path. Since they know where they stand, they can share in another persons spiritual celebration knowing it’s simply a sharing of spirit. It’s kind of like learning a new language or visiting another country. English may be your first language but you don’t suddenly become Hispanic by learning Spanish and you don’t become Italian by visiting Italy. It’s a wonderful thing to learn the way others celebrate their faiths and to find the similarities to what your core system of beliefs are, it doesn’t have to be a threat.
To me, anyone who believes in a positive way of living and who treats others with kindness, consideration and respect is on the same path as I am whatever they decide to label it.
I grew up in a Catholic family who also practiced “Espiritismo” which is Spanish for Spiritualism. Through family and friends I was exposed to different paths of Christianity, Santeria, Judaism, Buddhism and Wicca. Until about a month ago I was part of a spiritual group that was quite eclectic. Members came from many different spiritual paths and we were able to merge the different belief systems with a Progressive magical path. I know, it’s a pretty vague and loose description and I am choosing, at least for now, to keep it that way. It has nothing to do with secrecy or embarrassment concerning my involvement; it is out of consideration for the present group members. Of course I can’t completely avoid mentioning the group either since I write so personally on here and the group has been such a huge part of my spiritual and social life for the past several years. I can only do my best to find a balance between privacy and honesty.
Much of who I am right now in my life and many of the changes I am making are due to my role in and what I learned as a part of that group. My time with them will always be a valued part of my life. And, I will treasure and carry the lessons, the experiences and the people with me wherever I go.
That being said… I realized a few weeks ago that I needed to make some personal changes and becoming a Solitary Practitioner was one of them. It was not an easy choice but for months I kept finding myself at the same place, at a crossroads with paths leading in different directions of learning.
Guiding me toward a Solitary journey were my experiences meeting new people, many who followed a different path or a variation of what my path has been; students, teachers and elders who not only shared their wisdom with me but also listened to my thoughts and answered my many questions. I had that feeling I get when I’m in a huge library or bookstore. When there are just so many books to read, you wish you could just let them seep into you. I wanted to learn everything I could from each person I met, let their knowledge wash over me and seep into my spirit. It sounds a bit hokey and New-Agey but it wasn’t just my mind waking up, it was my very spirit.
So, regardless of my hesitation, I knew that I had to take a chance and see what’s waiting for me ahead. I’m nervous yet I’m also looking forward to it.

A "soon to come post"... Being a Solitary
Blessed Be      )O(